Happy Holiday

I just watched a movie about an orphan who has more friends than I do. Yes, it's a movie, but it's still depressing. I felt fine about my life until I got home from work this afternoon, too. I guess I just got here and realized that everyone else is with their family and having a nice time and I'm here by myself with nothing to look forward to. No one calling to wish me happy anything, no one calling me just to chat. Nothing. And I get four fun filled days of it. I'm so excited. I've been telling myself for the last three weeks that I'm fine being by myself, and then it all hits me like a ton of bricks. I blame Facebook. I get to log in and see how everyone else is doing things, has friends, has lives, and I've got nothing. Nothing I want any of them to know about, anyway. Struck up a short chat with the 21 year old, and suddenly realized we had nothing to say because he's just not interested. How pathetic am I? I seriously considered unfriending him, but then I realized that would be too obvious and lame, so I just left it. I'm considering canceling the account altogether. Facebook is depressing. It's the modern version of waiting by the phone for someone to call. And I hate that I'm on it so often. I don't feel good about it. Stupid Facebook. I never even wanted it.

It seems these days the only good thing about my life is my job. It's a nice job. I love it. I get to do cool stuff and meet cool people. I watch movies about orphans. And drug dealers. And accordion players. And weird misfits like myself. And now I get to go somewhere cool. And I get to actually see the fruits of my labors. I send out an email, a few days later I get things in the mail. Cool things that everyone else in the office wants to see. People actually respect what I do. And I actually like doing it. It's like being the assistant coach of the Tarheels. I may not be Roy, but I get to sit next to him and help out. And it's not the Bulls, but people know who we are and respect us.

So for the next two days I get a holiday from the only thing that makes me feel like I'm worth something. Super. Happy holiday indeed.