Busy

I was going to call you again on Saturday, but then decided against it. I figured it would seem weird since I had already left you a message. I assume you would call me back when you get a chance. I'm sure you're busy.

I think it's weird that Party City is advertising their Halloween Costumes by using Thriller as the music. It seems somewhat tasteless. Unless MJ actually is a zombie. Then it would be kind of funny. Or ironic. I thought today about what to be for Halloween, and made no decisions. Mother Nature seemed like a good choice. Or Midori from Guitar Hero. How fun would that be? The truth is that I don't really want to put too much work into it since I'll probably have nothing to do anyway. My friends suck, and I don't see how that would change anytime in the next 2 weeks. It's just sad to get all dressed up and have nowhere to go.

So I went on another date with the young guy. We totally made out this time. And then he left. Hmm. Yeah, he seems totally interested. In his defense, he did say he had to leave because if he stayed he wouldn't get any sleep. Because a)it was too hot b)I was nekkit. Generally acceptable excuses, but I still told like it when they leave in the middle of the night. I'm still not sure what to think of the whole situation. It was great to make out and stuff, but my heart isn't really in it. But I kind of want to roll with it and see what happens. He doesn't seem to want anything too serious, and I need a distraction. I think we are sort of on the same page about things, even though we haven't gotten into specifics. He's definitely not hooked or anything. Maybe just intrigued. As strange as it sounds, I feel like I have to be at least a little bit careful since he knows a lot of people that I would prefer don't know stuff about me (i.e. what I look like naked, how I kiss, the sounds I make when I'm really happy, etc). That would not be very cool. And it would just be awkward.

I also feel like a cougar, even though someone recently told me what constitutes cougarism:
1. a fancy car
2. a divorce
3. a kid
4. fake boobs
5. fake nails

Not all those things, but at least a majority. Maybe I'm just not a trashy cougar.

I'm going to make an attempt to not talk about the other boy for 30 days. I know all my friends are tired of hearing about him, and I am tired of talking about him. Plus I'm going to try to not talk to him or worry about the whole situation anymore. Easier said than done, but I have to start somewhere. It's also he same every time we talk. Nothing new ever happens.

Anyway, I hope you are having fun doing whatever it is that is keeping you busy.