Myself

It occured to me today that maybe I haven't been able to find someone willing to love me because I am so inherently selfish. That maybe I wouldn't be so alone and ugly if I were more charitable with my time and attention. I'll have to get back to you on whether or not that is true. But really, the truth is that I am selfish. I only pay attnetion to things that have a direct bearing on my life. Everything else just fades away. And maybe that is my problem to begin with. Why should I expect people to care about me when I only care about myself?