Shut-in
I just realized that I haven't left my house since Saturday morning, when I went to get groceries. Nearly four days have passed since I interacted with another human being. How many days would it take to qualify as a hermit? As a shut-in? I did make the 100 yard walk to the mailbox yesterday. I'm sure my vitamin D levels are below what they should be. Today I'm going to a class, so the streak will end there. I've also been toying with the idea of going to the beach, but that idea has to wrestle the idea that I have a ton of stuff to do and a short amount of time in which to do it.
I might go to LA on Sunday. And if I do, it means I have a lot of things that would need to get done before I go. I'd have to finish two more sewing projects and a hat by then. Speaking of which, I'm working on a coat right now that has fur around the collar and cuffs. Just to be clear, sewing fur in the summer is not very much fun. However, I still enjoy running my hands and face on it, because it is really soft. These days, it's really the simple things that keep me going.
That, and movies. I've watched about 10 movies in the last four days. Thank god for Netflix, right? I'm getting ready to watch some more, then dive into an art project that will involve my least favorite activity, editing video. Something about sitting under my hot laptop waiting for files to render is excruciatingly dull.
I'm hoping that when I look back on this summer, when it's October or November or December and I'm ultra busy with work that I actually get paid for, I'll be able to say that the summer wasn't wasted. My fear is that I'll get to the end and wonder what the hell I did the whole time, and why I didn't get more accomplished. Right now I'm my only motivation, and it often seems like I'm adopting a 'what's the point' attitude towards everything. I just pray that diving in to my work and starting project after project will keep me in a 'must finish' sort of mindset. Otherwise, I might as well hang it all up and become a barista.
Blech. This was a terrible post. Sorry.
I might go to LA on Sunday. And if I do, it means I have a lot of things that would need to get done before I go. I'd have to finish two more sewing projects and a hat by then. Speaking of which, I'm working on a coat right now that has fur around the collar and cuffs. Just to be clear, sewing fur in the summer is not very much fun. However, I still enjoy running my hands and face on it, because it is really soft. These days, it's really the simple things that keep me going.
That, and movies. I've watched about 10 movies in the last four days. Thank god for Netflix, right? I'm getting ready to watch some more, then dive into an art project that will involve my least favorite activity, editing video. Something about sitting under my hot laptop waiting for files to render is excruciatingly dull.
I'm hoping that when I look back on this summer, when it's October or November or December and I'm ultra busy with work that I actually get paid for, I'll be able to say that the summer wasn't wasted. My fear is that I'll get to the end and wonder what the hell I did the whole time, and why I didn't get more accomplished. Right now I'm my only motivation, and it often seems like I'm adopting a 'what's the point' attitude towards everything. I just pray that diving in to my work and starting project after project will keep me in a 'must finish' sort of mindset. Otherwise, I might as well hang it all up and become a barista.
Blech. This was a terrible post. Sorry.
posted by Ocean | 1:50 PM
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