High and Low

I didn't get all the way through my list. But I'm not that worried about it. I still got a fair amount done today. The stuff I didn't do was mainly little stuff. Laundry. Walking something out to the mailbox. No big deal. I didn't actually go outside today except to take the trash out (it was on the list). So tomorrow I have one more day where the rest of the world is out to lunch, so I won't be getting any calls, mail, or other miscellaneous business. And I don't plan to go anywhere, either. I suppose I'll just end up listening to fireworks from my house. Which actually makes me a little sad, because I love fireworks. I just don't want to go to the effort by myself. It's not worth it. And perhaps there will come a day, in 10 or 20 years, when some idiot will want to hang out with me long enough to watch fireworks with me. I'll have to settle for listening until then.

I do wish everyone would stop posting how great their three day weekends are, however. There's something about it that just irks me to no end, like people putting political or religious bs on their facebook status. Or those posts that say "see who reposts this, those are your true friends/people who really care/true patriots, etc". I fucking hate those. Yes, I know someone who has fought (or is fighting) cancer. Yes, I love my country. Yes, I have a family that I care about. But I don't have to slather it all over my facebook just to make some idiot I haven't seen in 15 years happy. Fuck that. I know who I am. If you don't, that's your problem. And for the record, that's why I don't put bumper stickers on my car, or posters with pithy quotes on my wall. That is just annoying crap that screams "I need validation. Please say I'm great/smart/pretty/witty, etc." Just sayin'.

Also got an email from my lead actress today, asking me to let her 'approve' anything she's in before I post it on the internet. Seriously? I am the director. I'm the one that makes the decisions. She's actually a friend of mine, and I'm a little offended that she thinks I might post something that would paint her in a negative light. Have a little faith, sheesh. But still, it worries me, because what if we make the movie, and then she doesn't like something about it and doesn't want it to be shown to anyone? I mean, has she thought about it? And yes, after putting all this time and money into the project, if it were finished and she didn't like the way she looked, I would sacrifice the friendship and put it out anyway. Sometimes in life, we have to do these things. And I have to take care of myself and my project before I take care of her. But seriously, the whole thing is ridiculous. I guess I'm just a little offended that my judgement is being called into question. Not cool.

So I guess that was my day. Not a particularly good day, but not terrible either. High and low, I guess.