The Basement

I'm going to try to get going on this movie thing today. It's hard to do things when you just don't feel like it. And right now all I feel like doing is staying in bed and talking to no one. I came to realization recently that most of my friends don't ever invite me to do things with them. They go out with their "other" friends. I've been trying to figure out why this is, and I can't seem to grasp it. Do they think I'm not fun? Are they embarrassed to be seen with me? Do they just not like me that much? If it was only one person, I might not take it so hard, but when it's everyone except one person, it becomes a bit stickier. Unfortunately, I have feelings, and they are easily hurt, and when I'm never included, it starts to wear me down. I want to give up. I want to leave town and forget about it and hole up in my parents' basement where I don't have to worry about what anyone else is doing because there is no one else. Because that's about how it feels right now.