The Two G's

There are two G's in my life. He G and She G. But it seems like anymore, they're not really part of my life, nor do they want to be. She G says she is my friend, but never really pays attention to anything I say. In return, she demands that I give her my undivided attention whenever anything she considers dramatic happens, which is anything from some pseudo-stranger looking at her to a fight with her boyfriend. It takes her three days to return my phone calls, and she insists that I never call her and also complains that we don't ever hang out, conveniently forgetting that I have suggested we do things several times, and she says great idea and goes with another friend. She G also never asks me what is going on in my life.

He G is same but different. He G claims that I am incredibly important to his life, and then proceeds to push me as far to the fringe of it as he can. He G never tells me anything that is going on in his life, but still wants me to share mine. He G ignores the things that I say, gets mad when I have feelings, and makes me feel like crap on a regular basis. He G treats me like an employee. He G has sequestered our conversations and meetings to the school campus, making it very clear that he has no intention of making good on his promise that nothing would come between us and we would be closer together than ever. He makes me feel like I'm a jerk when he hurts my feelings. He G doesn't care what I'm doing right now, what I did yesterday, or what I'm going to do tomorrow. He's too busy obsessing about the one that got away instead of the one he pretends to like. He G also seems to have a strange aversion to being seen with me in public, but even more so by his friends. He doesn't seem to want to have any connection with me at all. Recently He G asked me if I wanted to spend Thanksgiving together and I said sure. I went to the trouble to get it off from work, and then he decided he would rather endure the family drama instead of me, so he cancelled. Which makes that the second cancellation since school started. Again, pretending we're close, but never actually acting like it. Fine, ditch me on the holidays, when you know there's really no one else I'm close to.

So I guess the whole point of this is that the G's are supposed to be my friends, but their actions completely belie that. They are completely selfish, only caring about what they want and never giving a moment's thought to what I want. How I find these people I'll never know. The saddest part is that I thought the G's were my best friends out here, and they're the two people who seem to care about my feelings the least. Maybe it's time for me to find a different letter.