Test

In life we make these little tests for ourselves. For what reason, I don't know, but we do it anyway. Maybe to learn more about ourselves, or about others, or really just to do stuff that's difficult ofr us or maybe even for no purpose at all. My test is the phone. To keep myself from calling people that I try to keep myself from calling. I know it doesn't make any sense, but that's the way it is. The tests don't have to make sense. They just are.

So far I'm passing, but my resistance is flagging. Because I can't stand to not know what's going on, what people are doing, being ignored, and blah blah blah. But the catch is, I feel like if I can pass this test, then the next one of keeping it up and the next one of keeping out and the next one of and so on, will be that much easier. And then I won't have to have tests anymore.