Pain

I have a pain in my chest, and not the metaphorical kind. It feels like my heart has a cramp, and it's been her for the past three days. I don't know where it came from, or how to get rid of it, but I do know that it hurts. It makes it difficult to breathe at night when I'm trying to sleep, but also during the day when I'm just doing whatever it is I do. Maybe it's a prolonged heart attack. My guess is that it's psychosomatic, because I'm such a mental mess.

I'm still trying to figure out how to fix myself, because I've slipped into a pit of helplessness. It's like drowning in tar. Not that any of my "friends" give a shit what's going on with me. I've called them both and neither one has called me back. I guess that's what I get for my efforts. A whole lotta nuthin.

So, if there's anyone out there who lives in the area and wants to be my friend (I mean really my friend, not a fake one like the ones I seem to find), let me know. I'll just be slitting my wrists.