Trapped in a Well

My room is the only safe place. So I'm going to stay here as long as possible today. Yes, I know it's a beautiful day outside, a perfect day to go to the beach, but so was yesterday, and look how that turned out. I just want to have a day where no one hurts me with their carelessness and superiority. I want to be left alone.

I haven't felt this bad in a long time. It's actually kind of stupid when you think about it, that other people have such a huge effect on me. I'm sensitive, what can I say. So I'm not going to work today, I'm not going to school, not going to the beach, not going to the three places I frequent. Because I have to do something else. I have to sit here and lick my wounds and wish my mom was here to take care of me because I cried myself to sleep last night thinking about how I came to have friends that don't care about my feelings. Right now I want to pack my belongings and move far far away where no one will ever find me and be the good-for-nothing everyone already treats me like I am.

So today I am going to sequester myself away from all the things and people that are making me feel bad by staying in my room and talking to no one. Not exactly the ideal way to spend a Saturday afternoon, but hey, when no one gives a shit, it's easy to hide. They're not even looking for me. Good thing I'm not trapped in a well.