Tired. Headache.

Tired. Headache. The Usual. I had to get up early this morning, which means I had to go to sleep early last night, which is very difficult since I see midnight almost every night (and 1 am fairly often as well). I thought I would make myself sleep by drinking some wine, which ended up being almost an entire bottle before I felt even a little drowsy. Hence the headache today.

I think there should be laws against making people get up before sunrise.

Regardless, I'm in a fairly decent mood today. Yesterday was not so good. But sometimes my brain does things to me that make me feel yucky and I can't pull myself out of it for a while. Thoughts can be evil. But today the sun is shining and the house is quiet and I think I'll do my whining and bitching another time.

I started a serious diet yesterday because I gained 10 pounds over the summer and never got rid of it. But now my clothes are not fitting right and I'm feeling pretty grotesque so it's time to actually do something about it. Which basically means I'm going to have to control myself and not eat all the chocolates in my fridge at the same time, even though I really really want to and it's all I've thought about for the past 2 hours. And I ate two anyway. I'm going to have to keep one of those log books where you keep track of everything you eat because I have to see it on paper before it will really sink in.

But my stomach is growling right now and I don't want to feed it because that's the way it's supposed to be. I also have to brainstorm some things I can take to school with me because campus food is a huge part of my problem (right after my self-control problem) I have to think of things that are relatively healthy and don't need to be refrigerated and don't require 'fixing' in order to allow eating. Some sammiches maybe. Or veggies. Suggestions are welcome.