Communications
For the record, the internet is not an acceptable way to communicate with people you care about. Not facebook, email, blogs, or websites. And that includes texting and twittering too. Apparently Ashton Kutcher sent out a 'condolence' twitter because of Brittany Murphy. Unacceptable. Feelings don't necessarily need to be broadcast to the entire world. Some things should be kept private. So few people get that. But here it is anyway.
As much as I hate being alone, I'm actually not in a bad place right now. I've thought for the last few days/weeks/months that I have no real friends that are there for me 100% of the time. And of course, the holidays only exacerbate those feelings. A friend invited me to Christmas dinner with her family, which was very generous of her, so I gladly accepted. And now I don't have to worry about being alone on Christmas. I'm still trying to figure out what is going to happen on New year's. I'm broke, pseudo-employed, and I have no friends. So that whole 'go out and party' thing gets to be a little sticky. So I'll probably be alone, but you'd think I'd be used to it by now. But that's okay. My horoscope says that 2010 is my year. I just need to get to work and stop jerking around.
There have been a lot of thoughts swirling around in my head that don't necessarily have anything to do with each other, but they are still there. I don't know who I should still consider a friend. I don't know what to do about work. I don't know what to do about school. I don't know if I should move to another town. I don't know how to reclaim my mojo permanently. Oh yeah, I found it in Havana. And then I experienced some spill over when I came back. But I haven't been out enough to say that I found it for good. I need to make more money than I do right now. Not a lot, but more. And I'm not quite sure how to do that. Maybe I'm too busy. Or not busy enough. I started making jewelry to keep myself busy. Facebook just wasn't filling the bill. I need something for my hands. I've made some cool stuff, but what the hell am I going to do with all of it???
Anyway, I'm back in the holiday pseudo-blues, just like every year. Woo-hoo.
As much as I hate being alone, I'm actually not in a bad place right now. I've thought for the last few days/weeks/months that I have no real friends that are there for me 100% of the time. And of course, the holidays only exacerbate those feelings. A friend invited me to Christmas dinner with her family, which was very generous of her, so I gladly accepted. And now I don't have to worry about being alone on Christmas. I'm still trying to figure out what is going to happen on New year's. I'm broke, pseudo-employed, and I have no friends. So that whole 'go out and party' thing gets to be a little sticky. So I'll probably be alone, but you'd think I'd be used to it by now. But that's okay. My horoscope says that 2010 is my year. I just need to get to work and stop jerking around.
There have been a lot of thoughts swirling around in my head that don't necessarily have anything to do with each other, but they are still there. I don't know who I should still consider a friend. I don't know what to do about work. I don't know what to do about school. I don't know if I should move to another town. I don't know how to reclaim my mojo permanently. Oh yeah, I found it in Havana. And then I experienced some spill over when I came back. But I haven't been out enough to say that I found it for good. I need to make more money than I do right now. Not a lot, but more. And I'm not quite sure how to do that. Maybe I'm too busy. Or not busy enough. I started making jewelry to keep myself busy. Facebook just wasn't filling the bill. I need something for my hands. I've made some cool stuff, but what the hell am I going to do with all of it???
Anyway, I'm back in the holiday pseudo-blues, just like every year. Woo-hoo.
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