We'll See

It's cloudy today. I have one week to finish two term papers, and I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do it. I'm going to see the pro at the club tomorrow, which is a much needed visit. My swing needs some work. I no longer have feelings, which I guess is a good thing for now. They were becoming a liability. This class I'm in is all about women on television, and I feel like something about it is helping me to realize how programmed I am and there's probably nothing I can do about it. If only the fairy tale would come true. I realized yesterday that part of my problem may be that I'm just too skinny, even though a lot of guys say that's good. I realized that a lot of guys have left me and hooked up with a chick who outweighs me by twenty pounds. So they only say they want the skinny chick, but in real life, they want the housewife. Or maybe they want to screw the skinny chick, but keep the housewife. The thing is, being skinny is just how I am. I've always been this way. I don't know if I could gain twenty pounds even if I wanted to. And even if it got me a boyfriend, I don't know if I could stand myself. I have enough issues as it is.

So anyway, Kid A leaves on Saturday, and it may just be the last time I talk to him. I have this sneaking feeling that I'm never going to see him again after this. I guess we'll see.

Boy B called last night. It looks like we might be going to the big city next week for a couple of nights. I guess we'll see about that too.

I have to figure out what to make for t-day. I need a dish, and I don't know what. I'm an able cook, but I'm not the casserole type and I need enough to feed fifteen people. Maybe a salad. I usually make truffles, but I don't think I'm going to have time this year. Maybe risotto. I don't know. We'll see.