Simple Goals

I slept in today. But I didn't sleep well last night, so I'm thinking it's ok. Motivation has left me almost entirely, as taking a shower is becoming something I have to psyche myself up for. I want to feel better than this; I just don't know how. I don't care if Boy B comes over tonight like he suggested, I don't care if I flunk my midterm tomorrow, I don't care if the sun ever comes out, I don't even care if my neighbor never turns down their Mexican radio station. I have thought about drinking the champagne in my fridge, telling myself it's flat anyway, so I might as well drink it. I don't want to do dishes, I don't want to make my bed, do laundry, clean the house, make lunch, or mop the kitchen floor. I just want to lay in bed and stare at the crack in the ceiling. I don't even want my phone to ring. It rang three times already and I'm so over it.

So today my goals are simple. Write a lecture. Take a shower. Make it to class.

That's all. Hopefully I'll be able to get through that.