Being happy

Today I talked to a friend of mine that I haven't talked to in a long time. And she said that I shouldn't let him ruin my life, and that I should just blow him off and get on with my life. She has great intentions, and she knows how difficult that is, but I don't know how it's possible. I'm so deep in this crap of trying to get out of bed every day that crawling out of it seems an insurmountable task. I don't know how to change all this pain and anger into joy, which has been my problem all along. Plus my self-esteem has taken a huge beating, so things are pretty difficult.

Anyway, it's a nice thought. Distraction (and lots of it) still seems like the best way to go.

p.s. I think I'm getting strep throat.