Dating Game

My friends think I should start actively looking for someone to date. They have no idea how difficult that is. Mostly because I'm not interested, but also because I am so picky that there is no one out there for me. We talked about what kind of guy I want, and actually, all of us already know the answer to that. But to circumvent the obvious, an artsy-farty film guy who is really smart and sensitive.

He doesn't exist. Except in present form, of course. Or he might be in existence, but is gay. Except in present form, of course. I suppose I understand why they want me to get out and date, but at the same time, why can't they just leave me the hell alone? I am not revved up about the idea at all. And it seems cruel to drag some poor guy into things when I already know how they will end. Maybe they think I just need to get laid. They really don't know much about my life, so they are completely misguided in that area. Plus, I don't really need someone around all the time to keep me happy and entertained. Three weeks of sitting alone at home have proven that.

But, I suppose I've set the bar pretty high. Any person who can reach the height I have set is probably worth at least five minutes of my attention. I'm like the guy in the Ang Lee film that fills out the matchmaking application with such high standards that it will never be fulfilled. On purpose. But if someone were to get that, then what? The fact is, I already know what I want, and it hasn't changed in over a year. Almost two years now. Why would it suddenly change because I have dinner with a stranger? It's ridiculous to even think about.

It's not about moving on. It's not about forgetting. It's not about living in the past. It's about knowing what I want and where I can get it.