Sound Familiar?

I've been trying to write stuff and I always feel like it sucks. It feels like I'm writing the same stuff over and over again (sound familiar?). I want to be good at this. I try to be good at it.

In other news, I'm again wrestling with the notion that maybe I make poor decisions and end up hurting people around me. Feeling like I'm selfish and don't really deserve to have anyone care about me. I have good people in my life and I don't know what to do about it. I feel like a jerk a lot of the time. So I end up feeling sad or guilty or any number of things and then pass it on to one of them. I suck.

I feel fat. I feel out of shape. I feel ugly. I feel geeky (it's the glasses). I feel stupid. I feel untalented. Where does this crap come from? Is it really possible to function normally on so little? I suppose I don't think so, since normalcy is FAR from what I think I achieve every day. People stare at me because I don't do what they do. Little do they know I don't know how to do what they do. It's impossible.

Maybe I just need some serious beach time.

Does this sound familiar?