Disclaimer

I should come with a disclaimer. Or maybe other people should. Mine would be: I expect people to deliver what they promise. Theirs would be: I won't be delivering what I promise.

I don't know why I am so easily disappointed. But I suppose I should qualify my disappointment. I can do things on my own. I have done things on my own my whole life. But maybe it's the independence that makes me get soft so quickly. Do one thing for me, fine. Then do two things, then three, and the next thing you know, I've come to expect things to be that way all the time. And then you stop doing things for me, and I am disappointed. It's almost like I don't know how to take care of myself anymore. And then I'm sad and upset and disappointed. And I have to figure out how to be independent all over again.

But first I have to figure out how to not hurt anymore.