What to Do

So I've been thinking about how she's mad at me for some stupid crap, trying to figure out how to respond to her tirade. And somehow the only answer I can come up with is that I shouldn't respond at all. I refuse to grovel and tell her how sorry I am about something I never did or intended. And it's pointless to try to defend myself, because she already decided that I'm wrong. So saying nothing is the best course. But the bad part about that is that she'll be mad about that, too. So I'm basically screwed no matter what I do. So this friendship that has lasted over 15 years might just be over because I wished her a happy birthday on facebook and don't call often enough. Awesome. On the bright side, if the friendship is over, there will be much less drama in my life. But this is her choice.

I'm still thinking about quitting school. I have an appointment with my grad adviser on Monday. We'll see what he says. I have to go to school tomorrow and show my professor the book I made this week, as well as show her my new ideas for work that I'm thinking of doing.

I also had a meeting with my boss at the community college. I discovered that she has big plans for me to teach more classes and have more responsibilities in the coming years. I knew she wanted me to stick around, but I didn't realize she had such a grand plan for the future. And this is after my other boss said he might want to 'buy me out' of teaching there (even though he can't afford it, and all I really want is medical benefits). So I'm a bit confused at the moment.

There's boy issues too, but I'm not prepared to divulge. Maybe some other time.