Comfortably Numb

Tomorrow I'm going to see my friends that I haven't seen since last Thanksgiving. It will be nice to see them, even though I don't really feel like going at this point. At this point I'm just trying to get through the holiday without imploding. I'm trying to get a book made and some video edited, so I'm hoping that will keep my mind and hands occupied enough to keep me going. Today I got to a point where all I wanted to do was lay in bed and do nothing. So I laid on the couch and watched some movies in Spanish until I fell asleep. And then I dreamt about the boy, who in my dream kissed me and then turned into a white stallion. So when I woke up, I was even more pissed off, because that seems like a 'happy' dream, and I don't want to have happy dreams about people I want to strangle.

Right no I'm watching a movie about Pancho Villa (with some not that great dialogue), and pretty soon I'm going to start making my chocolate dessert things to take with me tomorrow. And then the book. Maybe some champagne. Whatever it takes to keep me as numb as possible.