Great

Do you ever have the feeling that you have a ton of stuff to say and yet you don't know how to get it out? How to put things into words? It's like trying to shove a pot roast down a garbage disposal. I also feel like that's happening to my brain. Like life is trying to shove a pot roast down my garbage disposal. Argh. I don't even know how to describe it, but that's the way it is.

My life is moving. Without me. I want it to stop or at least slow down. I'm trying to keep up with the momentum that has built up around me. I have this whole professional thing going on where I do things and go places and meet people, and yet it still feels really empty. Because when I come home, it's just me. Just me. The psychic reassures me that I won't end up alone, but sometimes I have a hard time believing it. 35 years is a lot of experience to ignore. Anyway, that's the deal. I have a pseudo-career, pseudo benefits, and no one to share it with. Not even a pretend person to share it with.

Great. Just what I always wanted.