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So today I was in the shower and I got to thinking about the fact that I have been single for what seems like forever, but really about three years. The longest I have ever been single. Ever. I could tell you how long it's been since I got laid, but let's just say it's been a while. Too long. The women that I'm friends with have all managed to get boyfriends, ironically enough when I'm not around. So it got me to thinking about the article I read the other night about how knowing fat people can make you fat, and maybe I'm like the relationship version of that. When my girlfriends stop hanging out with me, they get boyfriends. When they hang out with me, they don't have boyfriends. So maybe I'm actually some sort of curse when it comes to men. It would explain why I'm perpetually single and why I haven't been able to find anything worthwhile even though I've actually put myself out there as much as I can. I've done everything I can think of; the online thing, bars, mixers, parties, gallery openings, volunteer work. And I haven't been on three dates with the same guy since a year ago.

And I'm still trying to figure it out. I have friends that have tried to set me up and friends that say oh you're so great I don't understand why you're single, and of course, the friend who always says,"It didn't work out with me and so-and-so, but you should date him..." Yes, I'm such a sad case that my friends try to give me their leftovers. It kind of makes me sick to my stomach when I think about it.

And I've still been trying to figure out what's wrong with me. I know there's stuff wrong with me, but there's a lot of good things about me too, right?

So, since I've graduated, I started spending my time at home and going to the beach. I spend a lot of time by myself. Some days (like today) I manage to get through the whole day without speaking to a single person.

p.s. I'm surprised you still check this every day.