Happy Birthday

I finally got to see the stuff we shot for the movie. It looks awesome. Maybe I'll finally graduate. that's the plan anyway. In other news, happy birthday, even though I hate the holiday. If I could erase V-day, I would. I don't think I've ever had anyone for the day. That's incredibly depressing, given how old I am. So, like always I'm not happy and I'm lonely and I don't like it. Someone I know called me today and was sad that she got dumped by a guy because he doesn't like that she's a stripper. I wanted to tell her she should count her blessings. At least she knows why he doesn't want to be with her and it's something she could change if she wanted to. I don't have that option. I don't know why no one wants me and I can't change whatever it is that's wrong with me, partially because I don't know, and partially because there's nothing all that different about me. You would think I could at least get a date or two, but I can't even get that far. So I'm ditched or avoided by the boys that I know, and the only boy that wants to hang out with me is gay and takes me to places with names like "Urban Mo's" and "Lei Lounge". I also got news today that yet another friend of mine is probably going to get engaged, so I get to witness another round of all my friends getting married while I watch and stay single. This sucks. I should just shoot myself now and end my misery.