Forget

I met with my adviser today and showed him my movie, and he still wants more. Fine. But I'm stressed out. And right now all I want to do is take a nap and forget about everything. And I mean everything. Forget about the movie, the job, the financial aid, the candidacy, the necklace, the writing, the paper, the reports, the paintings, the music, the practice, the parties, the boy, his issues, the props, the costumes, the passport, the social security card, the money, the price of gas, the groceries, the electric bill, the credit card bill, the phone bill, the dvr, the graduate office, the equipment, the department, the ex and his woman, the fall, August, travel, meetings, phone calls, therapy. I just want everything to go away and leave me alone. Why is it that I am more overwhelmed now than when I am working and in school? It seems like life is conspiring to make things difficult for me at a time when they should be easy. Am I really so unable to cope? Am I being a lame-o? (I hope you appreciate that) Is it just that I have too much time on my hands, and am therefore able to procrastinate and worry and stew in ways that I wouldn't be able to if I was actually busy doing stuff? Or is this the stuff that is supposed to be keeping me busy? Or is it just hard because I don't have any support?

I am also frustrated that Kodak never answered my e-mail, and I sent two. I really don't want to have to call them, because I don't know if I can spare the minutes. I've been taking care of a lot of business by phone lately. And the month just started.

But I'd really rather just forget about it.