Beautiful and Depressing

Today I have nothing to do and I really wish I did. Preferably something that pays. I woke up really early this morning, so it seems like it's been a long day. And I've done close to nothing, and it looks like that's what I'll be doing for the rest of the day. I'm kind of down, but I don't think there's any one reason for it. It's just everything. The money, the job, school, the boy, the movie, blah blah blah.

I'd like to go see a polo match tomorrow, but we'll see how I feel about it then. I also need to get crackin' on these paintings and some writing and my film. I found out how much the storyboards are going to cost me, and while it is a fair price, it's still a pretty big chunk of change. More than I was prepared for. Oh well. Shoulda thought that one through a little better, I guess. Live and learn. Now I'm really scared about how much the film itself is going to cost. And processing and all that crap. Argh. Dad needs to hurry up and win the lotto. I'm on my last legs over here.

Anyway, another beautiful and depressing SoCal day.