Stick To It
Today was a little better than yesterday. After my pitiful rambling, I got up this morning thinking I didn't want to have another day like yesterday. So I sat on the couch and watched DVR'd shows while I graded finals. But it's not all bad; after the drywall guy (cute, by the way) came by to assess the water damage, I made it to the bank, post office, and grocery store. After putting the food away, I pumped up the tires in my bicycle, but decided I would wait until tomorrow to go for a ride. How's that for initiative?
As I was starting a movie, the owner of the building came by to ask me about the house, so he and I chatted for a while, and I watched the movie (Burden of Dreams - a behind the scenes of sorts of Fitzcarraldo). Then I made dinner, watched Jeopardy! and watched This Is It. Then made a budget for my film (how does it get so expensive?).
I still need to post grades, but I put it off today because I'm in a moral quandary because of an athlete who needs a C to graduate and got a D and is begging for some sort of leniency, even though he never bothered to come to class more than once a month and didn't mention his situation until AFTER he already took the final. Nice. I hate to ruin people's lives, but I also have strong feelings about slacker athletes, and slackers in general. Meh. I'm thinking about making him write a 5 page paper over the weekend that addresses the feminist vision in The Piano, which would be amazing if he were able to pull it out, and hilarious at the same time. I feel like a bitch even thinking about it.
So I'm still not making leaps and bounds type progress, but I'm inching forward. Tomorrow I plan to put together a plan for a photo shoot I'd like to do some time before the end of the month. I also need to put together a plan to shoot some short videos as part of a project I started back in October. Then some more film research (images, mostly), some vid editing/ripping, script editing, then canceling my cable TV and my newspaper subscription, since I've only received one paper to date, and I was supposed to have been getting a daily paper since February. I'm a little behind on that one.
I also bought a directing book the other day that I'd like to peruse further, and a bike ride would be good. In the midst of everything else, I'm trying to drop 10 pounds this summer, so physical activity is going to be a must. The couch will just have to miss me. It also means eating some salads and what not, which shouldn't be too hard since I'm already at home and can control my diet and my schedule. I'm also going without alcohol until the end of the month, only because it seemed like it was starting to be too much of a habit/crutch whenever I was tired, irritated, etc. Plus I had a dream that my liver told me to take it easy, so I'll take that as a sign. No biggie.
Anyway, I think yesterday I realized that no one is really going to help me get through this, so I have only myself to depend on, which sucks, but is just the way it is. Not much different than usual. Being your own cheerleader and shooting your own baskets is exhausting, and makes everything twice as difficult. Especially when you're only getting awards from yourself as well. Hmm.
Okay, enough for today. I have my list for tomorrow. I just have to stick to it. Or at least try to.
As I was starting a movie, the owner of the building came by to ask me about the house, so he and I chatted for a while, and I watched the movie (Burden of Dreams - a behind the scenes of sorts of Fitzcarraldo). Then I made dinner, watched Jeopardy! and watched This Is It. Then made a budget for my film (how does it get so expensive?).
I still need to post grades, but I put it off today because I'm in a moral quandary because of an athlete who needs a C to graduate and got a D and is begging for some sort of leniency, even though he never bothered to come to class more than once a month and didn't mention his situation until AFTER he already took the final. Nice. I hate to ruin people's lives, but I also have strong feelings about slacker athletes, and slackers in general. Meh. I'm thinking about making him write a 5 page paper over the weekend that addresses the feminist vision in The Piano, which would be amazing if he were able to pull it out, and hilarious at the same time. I feel like a bitch even thinking about it.
So I'm still not making leaps and bounds type progress, but I'm inching forward. Tomorrow I plan to put together a plan for a photo shoot I'd like to do some time before the end of the month. I also need to put together a plan to shoot some short videos as part of a project I started back in October. Then some more film research (images, mostly), some vid editing/ripping, script editing, then canceling my cable TV and my newspaper subscription, since I've only received one paper to date, and I was supposed to have been getting a daily paper since February. I'm a little behind on that one.
I also bought a directing book the other day that I'd like to peruse further, and a bike ride would be good. In the midst of everything else, I'm trying to drop 10 pounds this summer, so physical activity is going to be a must. The couch will just have to miss me. It also means eating some salads and what not, which shouldn't be too hard since I'm already at home and can control my diet and my schedule. I'm also going without alcohol until the end of the month, only because it seemed like it was starting to be too much of a habit/crutch whenever I was tired, irritated, etc. Plus I had a dream that my liver told me to take it easy, so I'll take that as a sign. No biggie.
Anyway, I think yesterday I realized that no one is really going to help me get through this, so I have only myself to depend on, which sucks, but is just the way it is. Not much different than usual. Being your own cheerleader and shooting your own baskets is exhausting, and makes everything twice as difficult. Especially when you're only getting awards from yourself as well. Hmm.
Okay, enough for today. I have my list for tomorrow. I just have to stick to it. Or at least try to.
posted by Ocean | 11:52 PM
1 Comments:
Forgive me for not checking in yet. I didn't want to bother you while your mom was there so I was gonna give you a few days after she left.
But, hey, it sounds like you got some good stuff accomplished on Friday!
And, yes, quite the quandry re: the athlete. It is hard to feel sympathy for someone who made such little effort throughout the semester.
So, take this as my first attempt at saying, "Lisa, get your stuff done!"
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