March Madness
I crashed out tonight for about 3 hours and now I'm wide awake. Great. Festival Madness has jacked up my sleeping patterns. I guess it's my own special kind of March Madness. I have one class tomorrow, and then it's Spring Break. I'm really glad. I'm also trying to ignore the fact that I have a mountain of work to do during that time in order to stay on top of everything. I'm also shooting the rest of my movie on Monday. Plus I'm broke, so I couldn't go anywhere even if I had the time. Maybe I can convince someone to hang out with me and go trolling for free drinks. I need some single friends. I did, and then they all got engaged and have boyfriends and such. Or just got flaky. I got left in the dust again.
I saw the hot Czech again the other day. I always forget how hot he is until I see him again. It's almost embarrassing how giddy I get sometimes when I see him. However, he has a thing for blondes, so I've kind of given up and moved on. Not that there's much to move on to.
Nothing new with the other boy. I asked him for a favor, and he said he'd help me out. Kind of strange, because I hate asking for favors, but I'm in a bit of a tight spot and I had to figure something out. He was the only person I could think of that could help me. When I thought I was going to give him up for Lent, I never imagined that the universe would make that impossible. Not that I tried that hard to begin with. Something about him just gets my mojo all out of whack. Maybe my Lent will just start later. What holiday would come after that? Easter? I guess I could start planning for my resurrection. Is this too blasphemous, to equate my lack of attention and sex to religious holidays? Well, I never was all that observant. No one has smote me yet.
Today someone told me I ask a lot of questions. It kind of bothered me in a strange way. I started thinking about how certain people have called me 'clingy', and I think they are connected. I don't think I'm clingy. People just think that because they can't imagine that someone would want to hang out and chat rather than need to hang out and chat. I don't really need anybody. I just like contact. With specific people. Some people I like more than others. But that aside, today I thought that perhaps I need to start exploring the other side of myself and just shut up for a while. Not talk to people unless it's absolutely necessary. Keep to myself. Not engage in lengthy conversations.
It seems odd to think about it since that's how I am when I'm annoyed or angry or depressed. It's difficult to imagine myself as being so withdrawn and being in a good mood at the same time. It might be an interesting exercise to see how people react. Because the more I think about it, the boy pays way more attention to me when I'm not paying attention to him than when I am. Being distracted or disinterested seems to drive him nuts. Which is pretty lame, if you want to know the truth. I've always thought those kind of people were people who really have no interest in being happy. They just like to conquer. While that can be fun, the magic wears off quickly if there's nothing else to keep you happy. Anyway, just a thought. I'll keep you posted on how my non conversant strategies pan out. Twenty bucks says people start asking me what's wrong, even though there won't be any angry indicators accompanying the quiet. Which is also a bit annoying.
Hope you liked the pictures. I wish I had more, but no one ever wants to go out, so there's never anything to take pictures of. :(
I saw the hot Czech again the other day. I always forget how hot he is until I see him again. It's almost embarrassing how giddy I get sometimes when I see him. However, he has a thing for blondes, so I've kind of given up and moved on. Not that there's much to move on to.
Nothing new with the other boy. I asked him for a favor, and he said he'd help me out. Kind of strange, because I hate asking for favors, but I'm in a bit of a tight spot and I had to figure something out. He was the only person I could think of that could help me. When I thought I was going to give him up for Lent, I never imagined that the universe would make that impossible. Not that I tried that hard to begin with. Something about him just gets my mojo all out of whack. Maybe my Lent will just start later. What holiday would come after that? Easter? I guess I could start planning for my resurrection. Is this too blasphemous, to equate my lack of attention and sex to religious holidays? Well, I never was all that observant. No one has smote me yet.
Today someone told me I ask a lot of questions. It kind of bothered me in a strange way. I started thinking about how certain people have called me 'clingy', and I think they are connected. I don't think I'm clingy. People just think that because they can't imagine that someone would want to hang out and chat rather than need to hang out and chat. I don't really need anybody. I just like contact. With specific people. Some people I like more than others. But that aside, today I thought that perhaps I need to start exploring the other side of myself and just shut up for a while. Not talk to people unless it's absolutely necessary. Keep to myself. Not engage in lengthy conversations.
It seems odd to think about it since that's how I am when I'm annoyed or angry or depressed. It's difficult to imagine myself as being so withdrawn and being in a good mood at the same time. It might be an interesting exercise to see how people react. Because the more I think about it, the boy pays way more attention to me when I'm not paying attention to him than when I am. Being distracted or disinterested seems to drive him nuts. Which is pretty lame, if you want to know the truth. I've always thought those kind of people were people who really have no interest in being happy. They just like to conquer. While that can be fun, the magic wears off quickly if there's nothing else to keep you happy. Anyway, just a thought. I'll keep you posted on how my non conversant strategies pan out. Twenty bucks says people start asking me what's wrong, even though there won't be any angry indicators accompanying the quiet. Which is also a bit annoying.
Hope you liked the pictures. I wish I had more, but no one ever wants to go out, so there's never anything to take pictures of. :(
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