Grr

Today I work for the first time since my birthday. And who knows when I will work again after today. My financial state is starting to become a seriously stressful issue. If only I could have been rich instead of beautiful. I'm also being reintroduced to what it feels like to be ignored. And it's starting to piss me off. I asked Kid A some serious questions and he "needed to think" and I haven't heard from him since. I wouldn't have asked if I didn't think he could handle it. Or that I could. But the thing is, I'm not asking him to change anything, I'm just asking him to think, which he clearly doesn't want to do. I'm getting angry just thinking about it.

I went out last night with a girlfriend, and we proceeded to fight about just about everything all night. Sometimes she becomes this materialistic woman who only cares about money and passes judgement on people so quickly and harshly that I feel like I don't even know her. Do we ever know our friends? How much can their values be different from our own and still keep them close? I suppose her judgement of "feasible partners" explains why she thinks I date losers. Because I haven't dated anyone who is rich or aspires to be so. And it also explains why the men she dates treat her like a possession. Or a commodity. Grr. I'm getting angry again.

Midterms are this week. I have a paper due next week. I need to get so much done this weekend. I'm hoping I'll be able to stay focused and get things done, because this is serious work. Anyway, that's about it.

Hope you are getting your chemicals back under control.