Monday

I'm still trying to get out of this. It's not going well. Lately it seems like everyone is happy except for me. Or that no one cares about my happiness. I suck. I did stuff yesterday and I hoped it would make me feel better, but it didn't. It made me feel worse. My phone rings and I just let it. And I turn invisible and no one knows I'm here. Ice cream and beer are the medication of the day. I'm slipping.

Today I have stuff to do. Laundry, phone calls, begging for help, trying to help myself. And my girlfriend called today and wants to have lunch so now I have to figure her into my plans. I'm still trying to figure it all out to get everything done. I need to get a haircut one of these days too. I guess the good thing about depression is that I find the time to get all those movies watched. I watched The Lodger last night and Deadwood this morning. I'm going to try to watch another movie tonight. Tomorrow is back to work and hopefully I'll forget about how unhappy I am. Distraction is good. My tv is freaking out right now. I don't know why. Stupid cable company.

Anyway, that's Monday.