Kid A

I had a dream this morning that the original boy, Kid A, died. And I woke up feeling very disturbed and worried. I seriously doubt anything really terrible has happened to him, but I guess there is that slight possibility and I don't like it. He hasn't talked to me since Wednesday, and the last message I left was on Friday. I know it's only Monday, but he has always been very good about returning calls. So I know something is up, but I don't know what. That whole I've been busy thing isn't really going to fly, because he has always managed before. What the fuck is going on? I feel crazy. I've tentatively decided to wait until Wednesday before I really start freaking out (although it could be said I have already started doing so) and figuring out if I want to take action or not. I pick that day because that makes it a full week, and I really won't have time before then.

Today I have a lot of running around to do, which I'm not looking forward to. Because it's running around in all different directions. Hopefully today will be a day that I make real progress on my movie plans, because it's time for that to happen. I finally got a cinematographer to commit, and his flight is booked. That is a load off my mind.

Boy 2 and I may get together today and see a movie or something. I guess it sounds like we're dating now. Hmm. It feels kind of strange to not have some sort of drama going on like I have had. I'm not sure how to take it. And to think that's how normal people do it. I think there is something seriously wrong with me, and the pro is unavailable these days. Maybe I should find a new club. Anyway, wish me luck on all the stuff I have going on, because I'm definitely going to need it.