Party Time
I feel like the busiest person in the world. This full time job thing is really time consuming. So there's this new boy, who took me out to dinner last night, and is on his way over right now. He's funny and he makes me laugh, and he's kind of goofy and he's the same age as me. A month (almost to the day) older. And he's artistic. I like hanging out with him. But then I find myself sad because the other boy hasn't returned any of my phone calls lately and I don't know why or what's going on or anything like that. So I'm constantly distracted, which is something I really don't like. I guess I'm also a bit confused. I guess that's the long and short of it.
So we went to a party and he only knew me and I only knew two other people there, so it was interesting. And everyone was dressed like the 80's, which was a sight. And we had fun and got a little bit crazy, but the boy and I left after we found ourselves making out in a corner on the walkway of the side of the house. I should have said goodbye to my friend, but the gate was right there and I was afraid she would suck me back into the party when I really was ready to go. And this boy loves to make out and he is obviously very much into me, and I feel like a jerk because I know I'm not as much into him, even though I do like him. And I know that the other boy is part of my problem and I don't know how to resolve it. I actually think he's mad at me but I have no idea why. I haven't talked to him enough to make him mad. Which is why I'm so confused.
Anyway, I realize that I suck because I have the complete attention of someone who likes me and wants to be around me, and all I can think about is someone else whose attention I don't have who may or may not ever speak to me again, for reasons I do not know. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be satisfied.
Still, the party was lots of fun, and I seem to recall some semi-incriminating photographs being taken, which are probably circulating the web at this very moment. Great.
Anyway, the next day and a half will be devoted to movie stuff, errands, and audition preparation. And hoping the boy calls.
So we went to a party and he only knew me and I only knew two other people there, so it was interesting. And everyone was dressed like the 80's, which was a sight. And we had fun and got a little bit crazy, but the boy and I left after we found ourselves making out in a corner on the walkway of the side of the house. I should have said goodbye to my friend, but the gate was right there and I was afraid she would suck me back into the party when I really was ready to go. And this boy loves to make out and he is obviously very much into me, and I feel like a jerk because I know I'm not as much into him, even though I do like him. And I know that the other boy is part of my problem and I don't know how to resolve it. I actually think he's mad at me but I have no idea why. I haven't talked to him enough to make him mad. Which is why I'm so confused.
Anyway, I realize that I suck because I have the complete attention of someone who likes me and wants to be around me, and all I can think about is someone else whose attention I don't have who may or may not ever speak to me again, for reasons I do not know. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be satisfied.
Still, the party was lots of fun, and I seem to recall some semi-incriminating photographs being taken, which are probably circulating the web at this very moment. Great.
Anyway, the next day and a half will be devoted to movie stuff, errands, and audition preparation. And hoping the boy calls.
posted by Ocean | 8:15 PM
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