Freaked?

So are you as freaked out as I am? I'm sure you understand all this way more than I do, but I still think I get it. I just wish I had a better idea as to what is going to happen in 6 months. Tomorrow will be the same, and next week. Maybe around Christmas, things will start to look gnarly. I was barely able to keep my job because of sweeping budget cuts, and now CNN is doing the Chicken Little thing and saying everyone is going to lose their jobs. I'd like to believe I'm immune, but I know that's not the way things are. When people start getting the ax, I'm sure I'll be one of the first on the block. What happens to my grant? It's funded by the State Department, so will they yank all these grants? Will I even be able to afford to take the grant and be out of the country for nine months? What happens to my student loans? Are the interest rates going to go through the roof, or are they going to go down? What about my credit card interest rates? What about my rent? I don't have a lot of disposable income as it is, so tightening down even more could be really bad for me.

Anyway, I really wish I knew more about money right now. Unfortunately, I just know how to pay my bills like a responsible adult. Which apparently is not even close to enough. Because in the end, I get screwed for doing the right thing, and the idiots who overextended themselves are forgiven completely. Lame.