Last Days
OH MY GOD. I just saw Dick Clark on TV and he is very scary. He really needs to hang it up. Does he have throat cancer or something? His voice sounds terrible. Tres terrible.
Last year I said that it was the worst year ever. I guess that would make this the second worst. Plus, for the extra added bonus, I'm spending yet another New Year's Eve at home drinking champagne. Alone. Everyone I know is either sick or out of town or is just an asshole. But that's nothing new, right? I made my resolutions, which of course, have something to do with the boys I talk to (who are clearly scum and don't deserve to breathe the same air as me). I miss the old days living in NC when I had peopole around me who actually cared about me. Cali is clearly much different. I'm starting to seriously think about moving somewhere else. It doesn't really matter where. I just know that here sucks.
I love that an eight year old just said that her NYE resolution is to quit smoking. And the kid next to her has resolved to stop playing the lottery. Nice. I love it when they make fools of idiot people with mics. Mine is to stop crying; specifically to stop crying about idiot dudes who treat me like crap. It seems so redundant when you think about it.
I flew back into SD today and I almost burst into tears as I was getting off the plane because I knew that no one cared enough about me to pick me up. No one in a town of 1 million people cares about me enough to pick me up from the airport. The last conversation I had of 2007 was with some guy from Canada. I don't even know his name, but I would bet he was in his fifties. I feel really lame for being here for the new year because it only makes me realize how many friends I don't have. Feeling alone is becoming more of a habit than a fleeting situation.
My horoscope says my life is going to suck until 2010. I guess that's the only thing for me to be excited about; that I'm one year closer to not being miserable. I have to wait until I'm 35 to find any happiness. Aren't you glad you aren't me now?
Last year I said that it was the worst year ever. I guess that would make this the second worst. Plus, for the extra added bonus, I'm spending yet another New Year's Eve at home drinking champagne. Alone. Everyone I know is either sick or out of town or is just an asshole. But that's nothing new, right? I made my resolutions, which of course, have something to do with the boys I talk to (who are clearly scum and don't deserve to breathe the same air as me). I miss the old days living in NC when I had peopole around me who actually cared about me. Cali is clearly much different. I'm starting to seriously think about moving somewhere else. It doesn't really matter where. I just know that here sucks.
I love that an eight year old just said that her NYE resolution is to quit smoking. And the kid next to her has resolved to stop playing the lottery. Nice. I love it when they make fools of idiot people with mics. Mine is to stop crying; specifically to stop crying about idiot dudes who treat me like crap. It seems so redundant when you think about it.
I flew back into SD today and I almost burst into tears as I was getting off the plane because I knew that no one cared enough about me to pick me up. No one in a town of 1 million people cares about me enough to pick me up from the airport. The last conversation I had of 2007 was with some guy from Canada. I don't even know his name, but I would bet he was in his fifties. I feel really lame for being here for the new year because it only makes me realize how many friends I don't have. Feeling alone is becoming more of a habit than a fleeting situation.
My horoscope says my life is going to suck until 2010. I guess that's the only thing for me to be excited about; that I'm one year closer to not being miserable. I have to wait until I'm 35 to find any happiness. Aren't you glad you aren't me now?
posted by Ocean | 11:37 PM
1 Comments:
Hey!!! Sorry I've been out of the loop. I really need to call you to catch up on things.
As for Dick Clark, he had a stroke 2 years ago and his speech appears to have not gotten much better.
Maybe your horoscope is wrong and 2008 will be the year of the turn-around!!!
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