Feeling Stupid

Ok. I'm tired. I've gotten about 8 hours of sleep in the past two days. I'm cranky, because I ran around a church all day with a camera, which made my arms very sore and tired. Something bit me, and now I have this itchy sore spot on my ribs. I called him, because he said "call me". And he didn't answer. Twice. What gives? This comes from the person who claims to never go anywhere or do anything, yet he is clearly too busy to take my calls. Plus he probably doesn't have anything to say to me, which is pretty much how it is all the time anyway.

I am so stupid. I have said this many times before, and I will keep saying it. Last year we were having fun, and this year it's like we are strangers. The other day he started ganging up on me with another guy, about money of all things. And it wasn't even my money they were talking about. I walked away mad. I walked away frustrated. I walked away feeling betrayed. I walked away feeling stupid. I felt stupid yesterday when I called, and I felt stupid today. I'll probably feel stupid tomorrow too.