I Tried.
At least they can't say I didn't try. This girl doesn't like me. I don't know why. She claims she got a bad "vibe" from me, and no one stuck up for me. No one said, maybe you were mistaken, or maybe you don't know her well enough to make such a judgement. Nope. I was the sacrificial lamb in this one, and now I'm the one paying for it. I'm the one who has to make the point to say Oh hello, nice to see you, and Gee what a nice day. She's not going to do it. Today I stood two feet in front of her face, smiling all the while, waiting for her to glance my direction so I could say hello, and she didn't even bother. But of course, I'm the one causing trouble. When I see her later and say hello, I'm greeted with a curt Hi followed by her back. I'm trying. I'm making an effort to fix something that I didn't screw up, and no one, especially her, is trying to make it easier.
But someone will always stick up for her.
She's the one that's new in town; she's the one with troubles, she's the one with loads of schoolwork. Apparently, none of these things apply to me. So I'm unceremoniously slapped with the Bitch label because of a 30 second "impression" she got of me. And now I'm trying to dig myself out with no shovel.
Do I even have friends anymore? Who is there for me when she is the one giving the bad vibe? When she brushes me off her cold shoulder? Is this a catty college version of tit for tat?
I want to sit her down and tell her that she got a wrong impression of me. I want to tell her who I really am. The only thing is, I've tried. She doesn't listen. She only talks. I sat with her for over an hour, listening to various issues in her life, and not once, NOT ONCE, did she ask me about myself. I thought it would be an opportunity for us to get to know each other better, but it was really only an opportunity to be her sounding board. So how is she suddenly an expert on my facial expressions and "vibe"? The only things this woman knows about me are things other people have told her. Can those things really be accurate, or fair? What does she know? What does she not know?
She doesn't know I tried.
But someone will always stick up for her.
She's the one that's new in town; she's the one with troubles, she's the one with loads of schoolwork. Apparently, none of these things apply to me. So I'm unceremoniously slapped with the Bitch label because of a 30 second "impression" she got of me. And now I'm trying to dig myself out with no shovel.
Do I even have friends anymore? Who is there for me when she is the one giving the bad vibe? When she brushes me off her cold shoulder? Is this a catty college version of tit for tat?
I want to sit her down and tell her that she got a wrong impression of me. I want to tell her who I really am. The only thing is, I've tried. She doesn't listen. She only talks. I sat with her for over an hour, listening to various issues in her life, and not once, NOT ONCE, did she ask me about myself. I thought it would be an opportunity for us to get to know each other better, but it was really only an opportunity to be her sounding board. So how is she suddenly an expert on my facial expressions and "vibe"? The only things this woman knows about me are things other people have told her. Can those things really be accurate, or fair? What does she know? What does she not know?
She doesn't know I tried.
posted by Ocean | 11:38 PM
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