Not Worry

Suddenly my computer is moving at a snail's pace and I don't know why. It's annoying. Why am I spending all this money on broadband? Speaking of money, it seems to be haunting me of late. My loans are all messed up, and I'm worried that they won't be able or willing to fix it. I'm also worried that I'll never be able to pay them back in this lifetime, and it makes me extremely uncomfortable to think that. Where oh where is my trust fund???

I'm feeling a little better than yesterday, but I'm still a little depressed. I need to go do laundry and I don't want to. I don't really want to do much of anything. I want to go to the beach, which I think I'll do after laundry.

I made myself some dinner last night and it wasn't very good. I don't know why. It was still edible. Maybe I just wasn't in the mood, because I didn't eat very much of it. I keep thinking I should have a beer because there's some in the fridge, but I know it would turn into a few beers and the next thing you know I would be tipsy before noon, and that's something I generally try to avoid.

I didn't sleep very well last night. I'm assuming it's because I was stressed and depressed, and I don't know why I'm so worried about my loans. There's nothing I can do about them now. Kind of like everything else, it would seem. So today I'm going to make an attempt to have a good day and not worry about things I can't do anything about. Which is pretty much everything.