Work in Progress
I'm trying to keep myself occupied so I don't take a nap. I have to work at 6 tomorrow, and I don't remember the last time I worked in the morning. It's going to be difficult to get up, so I want to make sure I'm sleepy before 2 am. I got up and went to see the Harry Potter movie this morning. It's pretty good. I have to say, Rowling is brilliant. Her themes are universal and timeless, and this one kept me thinking about the current administration and censorship and so forth. I'm not going to go out and buy the final two books or anything, but I have to give the woman props. I'll wait till the final two come out in theaters.
I painted today. Worked on my self portrait. Here it is so far.
The travelling job e-mailed me today telling me that I suck and they broke up with me. So there will be no travelling job for me. I have a feeling the museum is going to pass also, since they haven't called and school starts in two weeks. I'm fairly depressed about the whole thing, because I had hoped that my search was coming to an end and it was finally going to be time to start my life. So I'm stuck in limbo teaching one measly class at State and working my dead-end hotel job indefinitely. I kind of feel like the wind has gone out of my sails, even though there wasn't much to begin with. I've applied for so many jobs and have gotten nothing. I have a folder in my e-mail account full of jobs I've applied for in various parts of the country and here, and nobody is calling me. It's kind of a blow to any self-confidence I might have had left.
Still can't get rid of the belly. I'm wondering if I should just give it up and come to terms with not looking how I want to look. I haven't done any sit-ups lately, but I'm still trying to eat healthy. My birthday's coming up soon too, and I'm trying to figure out what I want to do. I was kind of thinking of doing something really cool, but that was with the assumption that I would have a regular income. So far it looks like my birthday might be Bud Light and crackers at home, which is more depressing than I can possibly articulate.
My horoscope said today was going to be a great day, but so far, it has fallen quite short of that.
I painted today. Worked on my self portrait. Here it is so far.
The travelling job e-mailed me today telling me that I suck and they broke up with me. So there will be no travelling job for me. I have a feeling the museum is going to pass also, since they haven't called and school starts in two weeks. I'm fairly depressed about the whole thing, because I had hoped that my search was coming to an end and it was finally going to be time to start my life. So I'm stuck in limbo teaching one measly class at State and working my dead-end hotel job indefinitely. I kind of feel like the wind has gone out of my sails, even though there wasn't much to begin with. I've applied for so many jobs and have gotten nothing. I have a folder in my e-mail account full of jobs I've applied for in various parts of the country and here, and nobody is calling me. It's kind of a blow to any self-confidence I might have had left.
Still can't get rid of the belly. I'm wondering if I should just give it up and come to terms with not looking how I want to look. I haven't done any sit-ups lately, but I'm still trying to eat healthy. My birthday's coming up soon too, and I'm trying to figure out what I want to do. I was kind of thinking of doing something really cool, but that was with the assumption that I would have a regular income. So far it looks like my birthday might be Bud Light and crackers at home, which is more depressing than I can possibly articulate.
My horoscope said today was going to be a great day, but so far, it has fallen quite short of that.
posted by Ocean | 4:13 PM
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